Bucket List and my thoughts

So I can't sleep. This is nothing new these days now that I'm officially in menopause. I have been searching Pinterest for bucket list ideas and ya know what? I realized I have done a lot of things in my life that I wanted to do. Have a baby. Get married. Send a child to college. Goto the Bahamas. Have a best friend. Rescue a dog. Have my dream job. Visit Vegas. Those are just a few. I have more that I would like to do. And everything involves money. Sometimes the little things are the biggest on your bucket list when faced to make one. Will I ever meet my celebrity crush? Not likely. Will I ever have wine and pasta in Italy? Maybe but I doubt it. I want the little things to matter most. Take each of my kids on a weekend get away alone. Write a letter to myself to be opened 10 years from now. Keep this blog up for my children. Scrapbook more. Take more photos of myself and be proud of how I look, scars and all. It's the little things that they will remember. It won't matter if I see the tulips in Holland because I've seen them in Orange City, Iowa. It won't matter if I don't make it to Bora Bora because I've seen waters blue as blue can be and sand as white and soft as snow. I'm realizing my list is just a list and maybe I need to be more realistic and do things now that make memories here, right here where I am now.