Hugging

People are hugging me a lot more these days and I noticed they hold on longer and squeeze tighter. Now I'm all one for a good hug. They say you need 7 a day. But it's upsetting when I know the reason people are hugging for so long. It's because they are feeling sorry for me I think and I don't like that. People treat me like I have a death sentence when they hear about my cancer returning. In fact I had a nurse tonight talk to me because she was a hospice nurse in the past and she wanted to tell me if I had questions I could come to her. Super nice but I'm sooooo not there! I know people want to plan a meeting with me or even better a trip to meet. Now I love that but not if it's because they think I'm dying soon...I'm not. I'm still doing what I do. Work, family, housework, etc. I'm still just a regular mom who happens to have stage four cancer. I may be in denial how this works, I don't know. But for now please hug me because you love me and just want a quick hug. Not because you want to mourn over me before it's time.