24 hrs To Go

Tomorrow is the big day! I don't know what to think about waking up boob-less from the 4 hr surgery. In a matter of a month, I was told I have cancer and my body will be cut open. In a matter of another month I will be starting chemo. Drugs will be put into me to kill my bad and good cells. My body will be at war as it tries to heal. I am getting anxious because from here on out I don't know what to expect. Feelings I never knew were there will surface and tears I am sure will flow. I sit out on my patio this morning reflecting back to the days my boobs were useful-used for feeding my babies. How can they go from such a good thing to something that's trying to kill me? Random thoughts are coming to mind but I know I am not alone in my journey. Friends, family, but more importantly, God, is watching over me and holding my hand as I take the next unknown step.